I've been meaning to post this quote, from The Virgin's Spy by Laura Andersen, for awhile but other posts came up and it got away from me. I've wanted to feature this and talk about it because I find it super relevant to me not only now but all the time.
I've always been a person who is grateful for what I have. There are always things I wish were different, most notably and for the longest time that thing being a relationship, but I try really hard to focus on the positive. Life is too short to be unhappy or wallow in self-pity but, ya know, I'm not perfect. Emotions get the best of me. I'm alone a lot and this is my choice because of my career choice but it doesn't make it any less lonely some days. And some days the emotions get the best of me and I feel sad. And lonely. And filled with self-pity. And I hate those moments of weakness because I truly do feel grateful for the blessings I do have. Regardless, I read this quote shortly after starting my current job and it was 1000% what I needed to hear at that moment.
Y'all know I believe in book karma and moments coming to you at the exact time you need them most. A few weeks ago this was one of those moments. I needed to hear this. I needed to be reminded I am not alone and we don't always get what we when exactly when we want it. I know this. I believe in God's timing and in hindsight it has been the best life 'choice' not to have been involved with anybody. I wouldn't have made the choices I have in the last 5 years had I been with somebody. I wouldn't have had the courage to travel and be as independent as I am. And it's only right now reflecting back that I believe I still wasn't really read to settle down in a relationship. CLEARLY, I have places to go and people to see, none of which would be possible while being "tied down."
It's always ironic to me when married or in-a-relationship friend says to me how great it is I can go do whatever I want whenever I want. And it is...for now. It's ironic because I'd love to have somebody to come home to. To spend a lazy Sunday afternoon with. To talk to at the end of a long day. But that's not what's in the cards for me right now and that's okay. I feel like because I don't have that that I have to travel and see as much as I can before I'm in a position when I can't do that anymore which is another side of this quote I found relevant. To take advantage of the opportunities we have at the moment and be happy about them.
What I'm trying to say in all my ramblings is that this quote was such a poignant reminder that everything happens for a reason. Everything happens in His perfect timing and when it's supposed to happen. There are always things that could be better but the important thing is be grateful for the positive things we do have in life and I think I do that 99% of the time. My go-to response at work when somebody asks me how my day is going no matter how good or bad it is is always 'It could always be worse.' Because truly, it can be. There's always the possibility for disaster whether at the workplace or in personal life and it's important to find the silver lining in everything we do.
What do you guys thinks?
Do your emotions get the best of you when you know things can be worse?